I sat back.
Have a little bit of thought. Just for a little while.
But that's when I see, All the reason why...
and that's when I see, All the dreams passing by...
and because that's when I see,
All the things I've ever tried...
I start to wonder. How will I...? Or Can I...?
Will I ever... see the path that I will take clear and safe?
Will I ever... see myself as a strong, confident and mature girl
that I always hoping to be?
Will I ever... be able to get there, all the way to the world that
I've pictured?
and Will I ever... live happily even after ever after?
Before, I was scared. I was afraid.
Not because of the demon or ghost or anything raged, but more with
myself and faith.
I was afraid to see my future. I was afraid of growing up. I was
afraid with whatever consequences that one day I will have to face.
I'm not Cinderella who lives in her wonderful dreams come true.
I don't have Doraemon with cool gadgets that'll help me the way he helps Nobita too.
I don't have Doraemon with cool gadgets that'll help me the way he helps Nobita too.
I don't know how to decide neither to live nor to die.
I fear that I will never make it and my dreams will be just a
dream.
I lost my confidence, I lost my hope, I lost my dream... I lost
myself.
I fell. Drowning. Alone. Way down in the deepest and darkest side
of myself.
I cried, but no tears flowed. I screamed, but no voice was heard.
And the moment when I thought I lost it all, that I will never be
able to get back on my feet to achieve my dreams… that's when I actually
see the lights.
I see the path right in front of me.
It's a long way, but I won't give up. I don't want to give
up.
And I don't want to lose my hope.
I realized how important things are and how lucky I am to be who I
am.
Indeed, Allah is Almighty. He gives me the chance to seek for my
inner self.
Sometimes it feels like I've spent a lifetime trying to find
myself and able to change for the better. But Rome
Even with this feeble heart, I will pass through the tiring
nights.
Now is the time for me to start something new and different ; it
is now or never.
And so, again. I thought.
Yes, I will be able to see the path that I'm going to take even
though it is a rocky and thorny path.
Yes, I will see myself as a strong, confident and mature woman
that I know I will be.
Yes, I will be able to get there someday, all the way to the world
I've always pictured and there is where I find myself... and HIM.
and Yes, I will be, with God's will, live happily even after ever
after.
When you're about to fall down and give up, have a sit and a little thought.
Don't give up, darling~
-iV
