p/s: this will be one of those long-ass vomit posts so be warned
edited on 12:07 PM, 8/23/2015 because of my terrible grammars
Hey guys, long time no update. How're you guys doing? Fine, I hope.
So uh, there's nothing much going on right now tbh. I'm at the end of my semester break, will be heading back to Bachok next week. Sad, yeah, I know. But life goes on, I guess. So many things to do, so little time. Everything felt like yesterday. One day I opened my eyes it's 6th August and the next day it's 23rd August. How time flies. It's not like I'm occupied with anything really. I'm basically spending my break doing nothing but eat, sleep, watching movies or read some books, doing chores, eat and sleep again and then repeat. Sometimes I did my arts, sometimes I write my stories. I didn't do any part-time job which explain why I'm broke. That, and because my phone 's busted and I had to get a new one that actually functional. So, there goes my money. I'm constantly hungry too ideky. But most of the time, I just sleep. Yeah, I know, unproductive as fuck. But what the heck. Just enjoy life while you can.
Speaking of life, my results came out last week and guess what. My result is quite decent. I did badly during my 2nd semester actually and trust me when I say bad, I meant really bad. There are lots of complication going on and things happened, I really didn't expect to get a good result for someone who screwed a lot. I told some of my old friends and they're like, gosh you didn't change at all and I felt bad a little because yikes, that's not a good thing to hear. I mean aren't I supposed to make a change right now? I'm growing up, learning and adapting to new things, I should realize the important things in my life right now, right? I can't always be the old rebellious me.
I went to school today (they're having co-curriculum day where lots of activities were held for the students from every club in the school to participate) so I get to see lots of improvements there. The school is slowly changing. But I can still feel the good old times I had there. I can still see what remains there or the after-effect; like a mark. Quite literally actually. You know how the students brought illegal things into the dorm, phones, ipods, mp3 players (all of those stuff) and once in a while there's spot-check right? There's this one time, back when I was in my final year, we didn't know that there's spot-check going on (we were hanging out around the town) and when we get back everyone was busy. So we went straight to the back of the hostel, there's a small space there hidden between the toilet and the bath, so we dig up, wrapped our stuff in plastics and newspapers and buried them. When the spot-check was over, we waited until late night and retrieved it. Works every time. But not anymore, that small space is now covered in cement. Turns out the school knows about it and had it covered lol they tried so hard. And they got a newly constructed bath too! Lucky.. Well, the school did that probably because one of my friends jumped on the roof of the old bath and fell right into one of the huge bath tubs. I was there and it was kinda scary you know, with blood all over the place and you saw your friend lying inside the tub unconscious, I almost thought she died. They fixed the roof, replaced it with the new ones- it was completely shattered. And they even put safety grills around the hostel- at the stairs and by the toilets (you can get to the roof of the old bath there) it was kinda funny tbh. They used the abandoned toilet at the third floor now too (they fixed the problems somehow) back then we often used the toilet like a secret hideout except that it's not so much of a secret. The students never go near the toilet; it's haunted they said. It's at the end of the corridor, near the swamp, kinda scary especially at night (they saw a woman standing there) idk we don't really give a shit anyway. Usually we just hang out, watching videos and some other stuff that you don't want to know. It was all good fun, great memories or not. The hostel improved and a lot cleaner. Back then, there were palm trees and banana trees and shrubs near the fences, even monkeys get into our dorms and eat our food! Stupid monkeys, but they clean it out now. Maybe they should repaint the hostel. It looks ugly and haunted af. And fix the fences too; the ones that I cut off and stepped on were still there. Well anyways, I get to see my old teachers back when I was in school too ofc. They remembered me, well, mostly because of my 'great' deed back then.
And all of them was like, 'Oh you! Yeah, I remember you.'
'Oh, you're one of those girls back then right?'
'Hani Izzaty! Budak nakal dulu ni!'
'Ni Hani Izzaty! Dia sorang je yang terkeluar ni.' What my teacher meant here is that I was the only one in my class that didn't study neither religion nor science or languages (which is not true /sigh/ there's another classmate of mine- but I doubt this matters to her- who study at the same university as I am right now, but in different course. He's in Cultural Heritage) I was in an 'elite' class back then called 'Agama Sains', where I studied both religion and science. So I had 12 subjects (KKQ included) instead of 10 or 9 during SPM.
I honestly didn't think I'd leave such memories in their heads. Though I had fun back then (good old times) I felt kinda bad. I'd like to say that I'm not that bad now. That I know what I'm doing and I'm trying to improve myself, I'm trying to be better. I wanted to say that I still have so many things to do and even though I keep making mistakes, I tried to learn from them. There are so many things going on, sometimes I couldn't keep up, so I'm still trying my best. I know that I'm not the best, but I'm trying to be. I'm trying to be the best in my own way.
But words can only do much, actions prove it all.
I guess I still had a long way to go.
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